Mallard Q. Duck

hi

And I followed her to the station
with her suitcase in my hand
And I followed her to the station
with her suitcase in my hand
Well, it's hard to tell, it's hard to tell
when all your love's in vain
All my love's in vain

When the train rolled up to the station
I looked her in the eye
When the train rolled up to the station
and I looked her in the eye
Well, I was lonesome, I felt so lonesome
and I could not help but cry
All my love's in vain

When the train, it left the station
with two lights on behind
When the train, it left the station
with two lights on behind
Well, the blue light was my blues
and the red light was my mind
All my love's in vain

Dudes, check out my new user pic. It was taken from a portion of an inkblot generated using my name. It is 13|-| 1337.

Inkblot Generator

.tsop JL na si sihT

"'Abuse' absolutely has a negative connotation and is certainly a point of view. A chemical is just a chemical. Therapeutic medical benefits are simply that, and nothing more. There is no heavenly mandate to dictate for what purpose a large primate should consume large quantities of a particular network of atoms. A chemical may be used for any purpose anyone sees fit."

with god as my witness
ill never be sober again

You know, I've come to the conclusion that the children of the 60s were posers from day one. Fuck that generation. It's high time hip young people today stop looking up to that generation of bullshiters.

"Do you think that young people today have as strong a sense of right and wrong as they did, say, fifty years ago?"
Yes No Unsure
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Here's a Simpsons frame - one of the greatest pieces of irony I've ever seen.



Also, a great quote:

"It is not the triumph of Science which characterizes our 19th Century, but the triumph of Scientific Method over Science."
--Friedrich Nietzsche

[This is a report, written Tuesday, on my recent trip on Morning Glory seeds, written to post to erowid.org. Morning Glory seeds contain various LSA alkaloids, which are chemically very close to LSD.]

I spent $27 on 14 packets of Heavenly Blues, ground them in a coffee grinder and drank the powder. Yes, I wanted to trip hard, and I did. This was Sunday evening. I'll divide this review into two parts.

First, the bad:

Jesus Christ this stuff is toxic. I got a pain mainly in my legs that lasted many, many, many hours. All parts of me went back and forth from feeling numb to being in great pain. It's been 48 hours and I still have trouble walking, like my nerves are damaged or something.

I drank all the seed powder at 4:30pm. I watched the World Series game two which ended probably around 6:30-7:00. The pain came quickly. Around midnight I was unable to take it any more and went to bed (which was quite impossible for hours - my brain was wacked out). I normally take a prescribed sedative every night and decided to take two. When I got up to let my cat out of my room around noon, I discovered that I had lost control of my nervous system (I think - I'm no doctor). I had trouble getting to the door, and when I did I had trouble opening it. I ended up lying against the wall, while very carefully moving my hand and arm to open the door; cat ran out; I stumbled back to bed. I made myself get up at 5:30pm Monday for a test. I got up, threw up, got a ride, took the test, wanted to throw up, left class early and walked home. I'm surprised I was able to walk. I'm sure I looked like a drunk who was about to pass out trying to look normal.

I got back in bed somewhere around 7:30-8:00pm and continued sleeping until about 1:00pm on Tuesday. That's about 36 hours in bed, if you ignore the two hours I was up for school, and I only got up on Tuesday by force of will. I still moved like I drank so much I was about to die of alcohol poisoning, now hungover. Every muscle on my body was shaking. I was mentally and physically very sedated. All this sedation was undoubtedly aided by the extra sleeping medicine, but this was still very extreme even considering that.

I went and got some espresso, which helped wake up my mind a bit and probably made me even more jittery. I thought about eating but couldn't think of anything that sounded good. I tried to play a strategy game I just got but was too sedated to learn it. I'm finally feeling a bit better, though my thinking is still foggy.

But let me make it clear: the worst part was that first night, while I was tripping. The pain was unbearable. Every time I tried to move a pain shot through my legs and groin. Knowing how bad it is, I wouldn't advise taking this stuff straight even if you can handle a smaller dose. It can't be good for you. Find some way to extract the LSA. But again, I'm no doctor.

And now, the good:

Oh, the good! Everything was swirling, swirling, swirling. The grains on the wood in my kitchen were dancing and growing and moving back and forth. Everything waved as though liquid, or blowing in the wind. Every pattern had infinite detail; the closer I looked, the more detailed it became. I saw tiny numbers in the patterns on the tiles on my bathroom floor. As I looked closer, they turned into complex-looking mathematic formulae. As the effects grew stronger, the game went from watching for hallucinations to trying to stop the hallucinations and see things as they actually were.

The best part was how it effected my enjoyment of music. I decided that listening to my new Doors album would be appropriate, and it turned out to be a very good choice. I became fascinated with the jazz keyboarding of... whoever the keyboardist is. It truly is impressive and very sophisticated. You should give it a closer listen even if you're sober.

I got hungry and decided to heat up a TV dinner, which took maybe 45 minutes since I couldn't keep track of what I was doing; my brain was fascinated with anything and everything. I finally finished cooking my food, and decided to try to relax and eat it while watching an episode of the Simpsons on my computer, all of which I'd already seen a million times before. I think I spent around an hour and a half or even two hours watching that 23-minute video because I kept pausing and going back to watch the same part over and over. I kept discovering new jokes and what the writers must have been thinking at this point or that and all sorts of similar things.

The visuals were enough to astound anyone, but the highlight was my new appreciation for the detail in things. I had this sense that I had discovered something great, that I could do great things with this drug. The phrase "open your mind" went from a being silly phrase by kids forty years ago who thought taking drugs could change the world (which is of course mainly all it is) to profoundly resonating with me. I felt awake.

(#)@RFCW%GO ME! I just wrote a mediocre algorithm for blowing up 3x and smoothing a pixelated image!

http://www.boston.com/news/local/massachusetts/articles/2005/08/15/war_took_toll_on_decorated_marine_accused_of_opening_fire_on_noisy_crowd/


War took toll on decorated Marine accused of opening fire on noisy crowd

By Denise Lavoie, Associated Press Writer | August 15, 2005

LAWRENCE, Mass. --A decorated Marine accused of firing a shotgun at a crowd of club-goers pleaded innocent Monday to attempted murder and other charges and was ordered to be evaluated at a state psychiatric hospital.

Sgt. Daniel Cotnoir, 33, of Lawrence, was named "Marine of the Year" last month for his service in Iraq. A mortician by trade, he prepared the bodies of dead U.S. soldiers for burial. After returning from 10 months in Iraq in November, Cotnoir said the job took a heavy psychological toll.

Early Saturday morning, police said, he pointed a 12-gauge shotgun out the window of his second-floor apartment and fired a single shot at a noisy crowd leaving nearby nightclubs. Lissette Cumba, 15, and Kelvin Castro, 20, were both struck in the leg by fragments. They were treated at local hospitals and released.

Cotnoir, a married father of two daughters, told police he feared for the safety of his family after someone threw an empty juice bottle through his bedroom window.

( the rest... )

ive got two things to mention... first, i got my cultural anthropology final back and the teacher commented "All of your answers are excellent, the best in the class. I thoroughly enjoyed reading your answers and learned a lot too!" W00T!! writing those four essays was hard work. UPDATE: but apparently, i failed the class anyway. sigh

second, i for some reason havent got around to posting a picture of my new, super-cool, personalized t-shit. here it is:

omfg... omfg... this is just too awsome



this was put out by the "catholic guild" in 1961. its got a introduction by j edgar hoover.  this whole thing is great, especially the way they demonize some of the few well-known progressive aspects of communism, such as womens rights and free child care
http://www.authentichistory.com/images/1960s/treasure_chest/godless_communism.html

falalalalalala life is good. what is good? life is good.

good!

life good!

i apologize for wasting your concentration on such stupidity, but...

*!*!*!*!*!*!*MOVIES IVE SEEN*!*!*!*!*!*!*

001. Napoleon Dynamite
002. Saw
003. White Noise
004. White Oleander
*005. Anger Management*
006. 50 First Dates
007. Jason
008. Scream
009. Scream 2
010. Scream 3
011. Scary Movie
012. Scary Movie 2
013. Scary Movie 3
014. American Pie
*015. American Pie 2* please dont tell anyhone i saw this. i had absolutely no choice besides staring at the wall, which might have been the better option
016. American Wedding
017. Harry Potter
018. Harry Potter 2
019. Harry Potter 3
*020. Resident Evil 1* resident evil kicks ass, therefore the movie kicks ass.
021. Resident Evil 2
*022. The Wedding Singer*
023. Little Black Book
024. The Village
025. Donnie Darko
026. Lilo & Stitch
*027. Finding Nemo*
028. Finding Neverland
029. 13 Ghosts
030. Signs
031. The Grinch
*032. Texas Chainsaw Massacre*
033. White Chicks
034. Butterfly Effect
035. 13 going on 30
036. I Robot
037. Dodge Ball
038. Universal Soldier
039. A Series Of Unfortunate Events
040. Along Came A Spider
041. Deep Impact
042. KingPin
043. Never Been Kissed
044. Meet The Parents
045. Meet The Fockers
046. Eight Crazy Nights
047. A Cinderella Story
048. The Terminal
049. The Lizzie McGuire Movie
050. Passport to Paris
051. Dumb & Dumber
052. Dumb & Dumberer
053. Final Destination
054. Final Destination 2
055. Halloween
056. The Ring
057. The Ring 2
058. Harold & Kumar
059. Practical Magic
060. Chicago
061. Ghost Ship
062. From Hell
063. Hellboy
064. Secret Window
065. I Am Sam
066. The Whole Nine Yards
067. The Whole Ten Yards
068. The Day After Tomorrow
069. Child's Play
070. Bride of Chucky
071. Ten Things I Hate About You
072. Just Married
073. Gothika
*074. A Nightmare on Elm Street*
075. Sixteen Candles
076. Bad Boys
077. Bad Boys 2
078. Joy Ride
079. Seven (SE7EN)
080. Oceans Eleven
081. Oceans Twelve
082. Identity
083. Lone Star
084. Bedazzled
085. Predator I
086. Predator II
*087. Independence Day* meh
088. Cujo
089. A Bronx Tale
090. Darkness Falls
091. Christine
092. E.T.
093. Children of the Corn
094. My Boss' Daughter
095. Maid in Manhattan
096. Frailty
097. Best Bet
098. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
099. She's All That
100. Calendar Girls
101. Sideways
102. Mars Attacks
103. Event Horizon
104. Ever After
105. Forrest Gump
107. X-Men
108. X-Men 2
109. Jeepers Creepers
110. Jeepers Creepers 2
111. Catch Me If You Can
112. The Others
113. Freaky Friday (the original)
114. Reign of Fire
115. Cruel Intentions
116. Hot Chick
117. Swimfan
118. Miracle
119. Old School
120. Ray
121. The Notebook
122. K-Pax
*123. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring* sucked
124. Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
125. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
126. A Walk to Remember
127. Boogeyman
128. Hitch
*129. Back Door Sluts 9* yay south park
*130. South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut*
131. The Fifth Element
132. Star Wars episode I
133. Star Wars episode II
134. Star Wars episode IV
135. Star Wars episode V
136. Star Wars episode VI
137. Troop Beverly Hills
138. Swimming with Sharks
139. Trainspotting
140. People under the stairs
141. Blue Velvet
142. Sound of Music
143. Parent Trap
144. The Burbs
145. SLC Punk
146. Meet Joe Black
147. Wild Girls
*148. A Clockwork Orange* YAAAayaAYAYAYR(*HFAY
149. The Order
150. Spider-Man
151. Spider-Man 2
152. Amelie
153. Mean Girls
*154. Shrek*
155. Shrek 2
156. The Incredibles</b>
157. Collateral
158. The Fast & The Furious
159. 2 Fast 2 Furious
160. Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
161. Closer
*162. The Sixth Sense*
163. Artificial Intelligence
164. Love Actually
165. Shutter
166. Ella Enchanted
167. Princess Diaries 1
168. Princess Diaries 2
169. Constantine
170. Million Dollar Baby
171. Life Of David Gale
172. 25th hour
173. Vanilla Sky
*174. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind* yay
175. Boogie Nights
176. Braveheart
177. The Anarchist Cook Book
178. How To Deal
*179. Mallrats*
180. City of the Lost Children
181. Run Lola Run
182. Dazed and Confused
183. 13th Warrior
184. Super Size Me
185. Dark City
*186. Jurassic Park*
*187. The Lost World: Jurassic Park*
*188. Jurassic Park 3*
189. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie
190. Apollo 13
191. It Came From The Sky
192. The Net
193. Jaws
194. Speed
195. Speed 2: Cruise Control
196. The Land Before Time
197. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron
198. Any Given Sunday I was actually in this one.
199. Friday Night Lights
200. Net Games
201. The Terminator
202. Terminator 2: Judgment Day
203. Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines
204. "O"
205. Thirteen
206. The Craft
207. Poltergeist
208. Poltergeist 2
209. Poltergeist 3
210. Twister
211. Boondock Saints
212. Elizabeth
213. Man in the Iron Mask
214. Labyrinth
215. The Dark Crystal
216. MST3K: The Movie
*217. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (and I mean the original, not the remake crap)* there was no "original." it was a tv series. furthermore, i thought the remake kicked ass.
218. Bambi
219. Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
220. Perfect Blue
*221. Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back*
222. Beauty and the Beast
223. Sleepy Hollow
224. Spirited Away
*225. Fahrenheit 911*
226. The Producers
227. The Ladies Man
228. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
229. Blazing Saddles
*230. American Beauty*
231. Radio
232. Princess Bride
233. Clue
*234. The Wizard of Oz*
235. The 10th Kingdom
236. The Green Mile
237. Dirty Dancing
238. The Last Unicorn
239. Fern Gully
240. John Q
241. Girl with a Pearl Earring
242. Last Life in the Universe
243. 28 Days Later
244. 28 Days
245. Breakfast Club
246. Radio Flyer
247. The Rules of Attraction
248. Hackers
249. West Side Story
250. The Color Purple
251. Princess and the Warrior
252. Last of the Mohicans
253. Pirates of the Caribbean
254. Fight Club
255. Chasing Amy
256. The Hunt For Red October
257. Buffy: The Vampire Slayer
258. Titan A.E.
259. Zulu
260. Wings of the Apache
261. Fiddler on the Roof
*262. Mary Poppins* looong time ago
263. What Dreams May Come
264. Annie
265. What's Eating Gilbert Grape
*266. Silence of the Lambs*
*267. Hannibal*
268. Red Dragon
269. Monsters Inc.
270. The Passion of the Christ
271. Gallipoli
*272. Peter Pan*
273. Remember The Titans
274. Pearl Harbor
*275. Titanic*
276. Last Temptation of Christ
*277. Monty Python and the Holy Grail*
*278. Life of Brian*
279. Dead Alive
280. Dream A Little Dream
281. Blade Runner
282. Grease I
283. Grease 2
284. Gladiator
285. Dream for an Insomniac
286. The Way We Were
287. Waiting for Guffman
288. Center Stage
289. Circle of Friends
290. Dead Poets Society
291. Real Genius
292. Arsenic and Old Lace
293. The Maltese Falcon
294. The Birds
295. The Talented Mr. Ripley
296. Princess Mononoke
297. Dogma
298. Snatch
299. The Matrix
300. Blast from the Past
301. Romeo Must Die
302. Shot In The Dark
303. Animal House
304. Close Encounters of the Third Kind
305. Continental Divide
306. Secretary
307. Casablanca
308. Casino Royale
309. 84 Charing Cross Road
310. Amadeus
311. Freebie and the Bean
*312. Schindler's List*
313. Singin' In the Rain
*314. A Beautiful Mind*
315. Cabaret
316. Citizen Kane
317. Lost in Translation
318. Ghost in the Shell
*319. This is Spinal Tap*
320. Grosse Pointe Blank
321. Heathers
322. Siesta
323. The Sting
324. Dirty Rotten Scoundrels
325. Gosford Park
326. Persona
327. Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid
328. The King and I
329. Dr. No
330. Dr. Strangelove
331. M*A*S*H
332. The Pirate Movie
333. The Little Mermaid
334. Battle Royale
335. 4 Rooms
336. Pulp Fiction
337. Kill Bill pt. 1
338. Kill Bill pt. 2
*339. Star Wars Episode III*
340. Twelve Angry Men
341. Inherit The Wind
342. The Computer Wore Tennis Shoes
*343. The Matrix: Revolution*
344. Mermaids
345. Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood
346. Miss Congeniality
347. Bringing up Baby
348. Gone with the Wind
349. Much Ado About Nothing
350. Adam & Eve
351. Finding Forrester
352. Superman
353. Excalibur
354. The Muppet Movie
355. American Dreamer
356. Jesus Christ, Superstar
357. Ladyhawke
358. Dangerous Liasions
359. African Queen
360. Raiders of the Lost Ark
361. Ghostbusters
362. National Treasure
363. King Arthur
364. Near Dark
365. The Horror Show
366. Sid and Nancy
367. Kingdom of Heaven
368. Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World
369. 2010: The Year We Make Contact
*370. 2001: A Space Odyssey*
371. Titus
372. Pitch Black
373. Chronicles of Riddick
374. Armitage III: Poly-Matrix
375. Dark City
376. A Tale of Two Sisters (Korean)
377. I love you to Death
*378. Alien*
*379. Aliens*
*380. Alien 3*
*381. Spaceballs*
382. Battle Royale II
383. The Godfather
384. Bruce Almighty
385. Heartbreak Ridge
*386. The Rocky Horror Picture Show* i saw the first half
387. Ghost In The Shell II: Innocence
388. CardCaptor Sakura The Movie 2: The Sealed Card
*389. Spongebob Squarepants: The Movie*
*390. Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within*
391. In the Mood For Love
392. Memento
393. Pi
394. Requiem for a Dream
395. The English Patient
396. The Professional
397. La Femme Nikita (French version)
398. Monument Ave
399. Mad Max
400. Plan 9 From Outer Space
401. Blackula
402. Romper Stomper
403. The Hunger
404. Eraserhead
405. Taxi Driver
*406. Clerks*
407. The Shawshank Redemption
*408. American History X* "risky" or not, this movie was pretty bad
409. Mulholland Drive
410. Sweet Sweetback's Baadasssss Song
415. My Immortal Beloved
416. Pollock
417. Basquiat
418. Frida
419. Seven Samurai
420. Kikujiro
421. The Man With Two Brains
422. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
423. Metropolis
424. Wasabi
425. Velvet Goldmine
426. Toy Story
427. Toy Story 2
427. The Last Samurai
428. Lady Chatterly's Lover
429. Ronin
430. A Walk on the Moon
431. Crow
432. Crow II
432. Saved!
433. Intermission
434. Down & Out With The Dolls
435. Empire Records
436. The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou
437. Baise-Moi
438. The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai Across the 8th Dimension
439. The Wicker Man
440. Lair Of The White Worm
441. Batman Begins
442. Legend
443. One Crazy Summer
445. Crime and Punishment in Suburbia
446. American Psycho
447. Princess Mononoke
448. Pretty In Pink
449.Cannibal the Musical
*450.Harold and Maude* yaaaay
451.Best in Show

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well, i can definitively say i failed my one and only course for this quarter. why oh why am i i?

So, like, I get back after being gone for the weekend. I see Guh Guh in the yard. I start to walk over to her. "Meow! Meow!!" she says. I pet her once. "Meow!" I pet her again. She wants food. I give food. She ignores me.

In other news, I finally have cooler socks than Adrienne.